[Link]

After reading this kind of topic at Neogaf I decided to make my own.

So, anybody bored with life as I am? I´m not suicidal, but I do not desire life either. I´m just bored with everything. Feels like there is nothing for me, except maybe alcohol, I have had lately big desire just to booze. Though not a cure, it helps, sometimes...



As I said, not suicidal, but if life ends, meh, fine.

[CessnaDriver]

Link, on Aug 21 2006, 12:43 AM, said:

After reading this kind of topic at Neogaf I decided to make my own.

So, anybody bored with life as I am? I´m not suicidal, but I do not desire life either. I´m just bored with everything. Feels like there is nothing for me, except maybe alcohol, I have had lately big desire just to booze. Though not a cure, it helps, sometimes...



As I said, not suicidal, but if life ends, meh, fine.

You dont know how much you have until its gone.

Things taken for granted you dont even realize how precious they are or notice them until they vanish.

You sound young with this kind of talk.

Get off your ass and live. Every minute is precious. Unless you have some kind of medical condition that needs diagnosis (I would suggest talking to a professional), this sounds like your not trying at all.

And drinking is the LAST place you should be going to enjoy life.

Or are you afraid to live? take risks? make a difference in peoples lives no matter how small?

Nothing is trivial. It ALL matters.

[Link]

CessnaDriver, on Aug 21 2006, 03:37 AM, said:

You dont know how much you have until its gone.




Things taken for granted you dont even realize how precious they are or notice them until they vanish.

You sound young with this kind of talk.

Get off your ass and live. Every minute is precious. Unless you have some kind of medical condition that needs diagnosis (I would suggest talking to a professional), this sounds like your not trying at all.

And drinking is the LAST place you should be going to enjoy life.

Or are you afraid to live? take risks? make a difference in peoples lives no matter how small?

Nothing is trivial. It ALL matters.

I don´t know, I just don´t know. I´m just tired of everything. I´m just 25 years old, but for the last few years I have been feeling like this, except for a month or so during this summer. But now I´m back to my old self, being alone. Maybe little worse than it used to be.

Don´t know if I have any medical condition, some might call it depression, maybe accurate, don´t know.

I don´t drink to enjoy life, I just drink to ease pain. and sometimes just to have good times with friends.

Afraid to live, maybe. Take risks? I don´t usually take risks. And making a difference, don´t feel like there is any difference I can do.

[CessnaDriver]

Link, on Aug 21 2006, 02:02 AM, said:

I don´t know, I just don´t know. I´m just tired of everything. I´m just 25 years old, but for the last few years I have been feeling like this, except for a month or so during this summer. But now I´m back to my old self, being alone. Maybe little worse than it used to be.

Don´t know if I have any medical condition, some might call it depression, maybe accurate, don´t know.

I don´t drink to enjoy life, I just drink to ease pain. and sometimes just to have good times with friends.

Afraid to live, maybe. Take risks? I don´t usually take risks. And making a difference, don´t feel like there is any difference I can do.

First step is to talk to a professional. There is nothing wrong with doing this. DONT think there is. Men can be the worst about this. Everyone went to talk to Troi on Next Gen afterall.

Getting away from the monitor is the next step. Just going to talk to someone is taking a risk. We fear the unknown. Interesting that you say during summer you feel better. There may be a medical explaination, I seem to remember something about seasons and more light making a difference in depression.



If you like Trek, take a lesson from it. All the characters take risks of some kind. Doesnt mean you have to risk your life or anything. Just something that makes you grow as a person. I bet there is something you know you probabably should be doing.



Making a difference does not mean saving the world or anything. The litte things we do can impact others greatly. Little differences you can make do matter. Your family, your friends, those things. Those things matter. Making others peoples lives better because you are there. Even just one person. Something to care about beyond self.



We all get depressed sometimes. but it should not last a long time, if it does, something is wrong.

And these days there are so many places to go to to fix it. Even just regular excercise can change our brain chemistry for the better. Talk to someone. Get out in the light and sun, get some excercise out in natural areas.



Consider it.

[lwallace2]

Hey, Link, I have been slowly trying to climb out of such a state myself, though I have been dealing with a supposedly "incurable" illness for the last couple of years, so maybe that gives me somewhat of an excuse? LOL Anyhow, I have personally found that it helps me a little when I do things that aren't part of the normal routine, something that gets me out of my rut of a life. They're usually little things, but still they kind of "snap" you out of your normal mode of thinking for a brief time. It can be something like making a point of checking out new restaurants, going out when you normally would stay in, do some fun or philosophical reading at a library or bookstore, etc. Make a list of the little things that make you happy. And if you can't think of anything right now because you're too depressed, try to think back and remember things that USED to make you happy (like watching your fave Star Trek episodes? LOL). They will probably make you happy again, if you did them more often. Also I think it helps to believe you have some purpose or goal. It can be totally "shallow" like planning a trip to somewhere you've always wanted to go and then constantly working toward that goal, or it can be finding some way to contribute your energy and time to a cause that you can really get your heart into. Try focusing more of your attention on other people instead of yourself. That usually helps me too. I mean, really make yourself CARE about the person you're dealing with, rather than thinking them an annoyance or whatever. Come up with some personal growth goals and apply one every day. Like one day you can focus on really listening to people, another day trying to smile more, another day finding ways to help others in little ways, another day being more patient, etc. etc. I feel it's kind of like a game that way, and you feel really good about yourself when you accomplish things like that, and usually you find that people start responding to you differently too, though maybe it's all in our heads, I don't know.

Anyhow, those are the things I can think of off the top of my head for now, things that have helped me anyway. I too have had urges to just "drink it all away" but fortunately with the illness I have, alcohol makes me feel even worse the next day so I've stayed away from that option. LOL. Plus I know becoming an alcoholic would only make things worse in the long run! Just gotta figure out what's wrong and do what we can to fix it, eh? Good luck and I hope you find your way back to a path that's exciting and rewarding for you! Keep us posted...

[Link]

Great, it just got awhole lot worse. Phlox this, Phlox it all now, I don´t care, someone end my Phlox life right now!

[CessnaDriver]

Link, on Aug 21 2006, 04:18 AM, said:

Great, it just got awhole lot worse. Phlox this, Phlox it all now, I don´t care, someone end my Phlox life right now!

Talk to someone soon friend.

[Link]

CessnaDriver, on Aug 21 2006, 06:48 AM, said:

Talk to someone soon friend.

Don´t think nobody can help me anymore...

[CessnaDriver]

Link, on Aug 21 2006, 04:52 AM, said:

Don´t think nobody can help me anymore...

Have you ever sought help before for depression?

[Link]

CessnaDriver, on Aug 21 2006, 07:15 AM, said:

Have you ever sought help before for depression?

Nope, I have not.

[trek forever]

Link, on Aug 21 2006, 05:24 AM, said:

Nope, I have not.

Do it. You really sound like it might help.


Best wishes,

Scott

[CessnaDriver]

Link, on Aug 21 2006, 05:24 AM, said:

Nope, I have not.

Why continue being miserable if someone can do something for you?

Isnt it worth trying? What have you got to lose?

[Link]

I don´t like to trouble people with my misery. I´m used to repress (sp?) everything.
As my signature says: No one but me can save myself, but it's too late
Now I can't think, think why I should even try

[Trek Realist]

I can understand being bored with life. I am 41 years old and my life consists or work at work, work at home, and this. I havn't taken a vacation or even holiday time now in over 10 years (with the exception of 3 days in Vegas in 2001). I prefer sleep because, as Ralph Wiggum says, "Oh boy, Sleep! That's where I'm a Viking!"



I am tired, I am depressed, I am overwhelmed and if it weren't for TV I would have no reason to live

[Link]

Life it seems will fade away
Drifting further every day
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters no one else
I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free

Things are not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly lost, this can't be real
Cannot stand this hell I feel
Emptiness is filling me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me, but now He's gone

No one but me can save myself, but it's too late
Now I can't think, think why I should even try

Yesterday seems as though it never existed
Death greets me warm, now I will just say good-bye

[CessnaDriver]

Metallica lyrics?



No wonder your feeling down.



Dude. GO TALK TO SOMEONE!



Your are damn lucky Im not there with you because I would be DRAGGING YOUR ASS to the professionals. What are you friends and familys emails? Does anyone offline know the state your in?



Or do you enjoy the attention? Because if you want help, if you REALLY want anyone here to help, you have to listen. There are REAL people on this side who care, and responding with lyrics from a metal band is NOT acceptable when people are concerned about you.

[lwallace2]

Trek Realist, on Aug 21 2006, 11:12 AM, said:

I can understand being bored with life. I am 41 years old and my life consists or work at work, work at home, and this. I havn't taken a vacation or even holiday time now in over 10 years (with the exception of 3 days in Vegas in 2001). I prefer sleep because, as Ralph Wiggum says, "Oh boy, Sleep! That's where I'm a Viking!"

Ok I know this thread is supposed to be about Link, but hope he doesn't mind if I ask...

WHY haven't you taken any vacations or holiday time?!?!? I would go absolutely INSANE if I was in that situation. "Getting away from it all" once in a while is one of the few reasons I'm not more depressed than I already have been!

It's also a good way to get perspective on your life. Especially if you go somewhere really different.

[Link]

CessnaDriver, on Aug 21 2006, 09:05 PM, said:

Metallica lyrics?

No wonder your feeling down.

Dude. GO TALK TO SOMEONE!

Your are damn lucky Im not there with you because I would be DRAGGING YOUR ASS to the professionals. What are you friends and familys emails? Does anyone offline know the state your in?

Or do you enjoy the attention? Because if you want help, if you REALLY want anyone here to help, you have to listen. There are REAL people on this side who care, and responding with lyrics from a metal band is NOT acceptable when people are concerned about you.

Yeah, Metallica lyrics, that song says everything.

Pretty much nobody knows my state, except for my ex girlfriend, we talked little today, basically told my situation, blah blah, I miss her, I love her and stuff like that. She´s part reason why I´m like this.

But she has hooked up with another guy, sucks for me. I want her back. Yet confuses me all the time, she kept saying she misses me today... Can´t she just shut the hell up about her boyfriend, I don´t wanna hear!



Usually one I can talk to is a friend, my best friend I´ve known since diapers is leaving tomorrow for Thailand, he´ll be gone for three weeks, can´t talk with him. My other friends, not that close with them. My family, not that close either with them so I have no one to talk to. Except for a professional who just spew Phlox after Phlox anyway.

[aklaus]

Link, on Aug 20 2006, 07:02 PM, said:

I don´t know, I just don´t know. I´m just tired of everything. I´m just 25 years old, but for the last few years I have been feeling like this, except for a month or so during this summer. But now I´m back to my old self, being alone. Maybe little worse than it used to be.

CessnaDriver, on Aug 20 2006, 08:33 PM, said:

Interesting that you say during summer you feel better. There may be a medical explaination, I seem to remember something about seasons and more light making a difference in depression.

Late reply, but...it's called Seasonal Affective Disorder, and it's probably most of the reason why teen suicide rates in Alaska are in the freaking stratosphere. Getting out in the sun whether you feel like crawling out from under the bed or not is the best thing for it (and I would know--there seems to be a seasonal-affective component to my depression, though situational triggers are a stronger factor in my case).

[Link]

Well, the reason I felt good this summer was because I had a girlfriend, so my "depression" ended, now that it´s over, I got it back...